Feeling loved

Ever had one of those moments where you reflect on your life and all the wonderful people who fill it?

I did earlier today while I was folding laundry. My heart felt full of all the wonderful people who I am lucky enough to call friends and family. Some of this might have been because I’m getting texts and fb posts from people congratulating me on finishing my masters. But even without those I still feel my heart full of love.

I might not have buckets of friends but I have enough to hold in my hands and I think that’s perfect.

Ropes course fun!!! And I only freaked out once and it involved a swinging zip line thing.

We are never so vulnerable as when we love
Sigmund Freud

Allow yourself to trust.

Words to live by.


Allow yourself to trust.

Words to live by.

(Reblogged from theguywhoinventedtheseatbelt)

Daily self accomplishment

Today in practicum class we discussed the importance of acknowledging the good in ourselves. Not only for ourselves but also for our clients to do.

It is easy for us to only think of the negative things about ourselves. It is that voice in our brain that tells us that we aren’t good people or worthy of our lives or the things we have. But there are times in our lives when that voice takes over and consumes who we are. It is important for us to overcome that voice and take back the control.

I have always struggled with that voice but throughout my process of self awareness, I have made the decision to think of one thing about myself that I have done positively throughout the day. It might not seem like a big thing but this simple act can start to change my outlook on my life and my outlook on myself.

It’s nice to find out new ways to improve your life and chance it for the better.

2013 recap

So as 2013 comes to a close, it is a great time to reflect the the past year and it’s achievements.

2013 was a good year. It wasn’t boring or plain. It was eventful and entertaining. There were many personal obstacles which I am still navigating through but all in all it was a year I will remember fondly.

Every New Year’s Eve I try and answer these basic questions:

What is something you tried new this year?

I tried eggnog for the first time this holiday season and it wasn’t to bad. Not my favorite but don’t hate it. I started my life as a therapist this year. That was scary but so far it’s been very rewarding.

What is something you are proud of?

I’m proud of myself for actually trying to let things go and to go with the flow. I love to control everything and this year I have had to realize that I cannot do everything nor control every aspect of my life. Especially when it involves other people. I can only control myself and what I put into this world. And I am proud of myself for actually realizing this and making a change for the positive.

What is something you learned?

I learned about myself. Since I’ve been on this journey of self discovery for school and my future job as a therapist. I have learned a lot about who I am and why I am the way I am. It’s been a challenging trip and a trip I feel like I’ve been on all my life. But my brain and heart are finally in a safe space to explore and grow.

Something I want to accomplish/goal in 2014?

I want to relearn how to run. Sounds weird but I’m a horrible runner. I don’t even think I can run more than two blocks without wanting to pass out. Haha. Or walking the rest of the ‘run’ so this year I’m going to learn how to run. I also want to keep working on myself and continue to grow as a person.

In this home we know our manners. So we eat our beef bones on napkins.

Wally was so exhausted during his visit in the bay that he fell asleep with his head in a coconut bra.

Got it from my dada

People are always taking about the bad things that they have inherited for their parent of the same sex.

What about the good things? What about the things you inherit from our parent of the opposite sex?

Now I will admit that there are some things from both of my parents that I wish I never got. And now really isn’t the time to go into that long list ;)

But I want to concentrate on one trait I sometimes forget I have and enjoy. It’s the love of reading. Now some of you might not think its a big deal ‘reading oooo so not special’ but I can sit for hours enjoying the world of fantasy from my living room. That is a special gift and I get it from my dada. Now my mom used to tell me that she reads. She read a book but read one page a day. I can sit and read chapter after chapter for hours.

As a grad student I sometimes forget how much I love reading because I have to do it every day/week/month for subjects I don’t always find entertaining or enjoyable.

This past weekend I sat down and read two books and had to stall starting a third because I needed to finish my reading for school. For this long weekend you could find me laying in bed or on the couch with the pup enjoying the written word I sometimes take for advantage.

It’s something I really love in my partner. We both like to read for fun. We actually spend a lot if time reading right next to each other and enjoying each other’s company in the silence as we read our books.

We have a saying in this house when someone gets a new book, ‘bye love you, see you in a week’

Well enough writing time reward myself for doing my school reading with some recreational reading :)

Wally playing with Hayden. Both are 16 months old. So adorable!!